Middle Child Syndrome: A Good Daughter's burden

"The middle or second born child or children often have the sense of not belonging. They fight to receive attention from parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignored or dubbed off as being the same as another sibling. Being in the middle a child can feel insecure. The middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction from the first born child. Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow of things. Being a middle child would mean they are loners. Not liking to take the limelight for anything, they are not over achievers and just simply work enough work to get by, and typically that goes with school as well as a career. They are however very artistic and creative. If forced to use abilities they will work well, but do not work well under pressure. They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project. The best career move for a middle child would be along the lines of using their creative. Going into a writing or journalism career, and into a career that they could freely express themselves would be good. Anything that would have hours that are flexible, and projects that frequently changed would be good for a middle born child. Since relationships are not of high importance to a middle child, often times they are alone. However, the best possible match for a middle child would be a last born. "

I cant say that anything mentioned above implies to my being but I can defenitely relate to A feeling of a burdened middle child...

First of all, as a middle child, I experienced lesser attention from my relatives. I received more criticisms than my sisters and I had more sacrifices than my other siblings.. I should be bitter on how my life had become like this, but on the second thought, why should I???
I received lesser attention for me to discover myself earlier than my ate and much more mature than how ate thinks.. I learned how to cook at the age of 8, because I already felt the call of responsibility whenever there are no older pepople around. I took the responsibility of enrolling my siblings to whatever school we attended becuse I know that my mom cant do it because of her tight scheduled job. I was known as the family's top suplada kid, with a very maldita attitude because I never sought help from my bigger cousins, but they never knew how I was able to turn myself into a independent kid, someone that can stand alone, someone that can make decisions for herself.



I had more sacrifices than my other siblings ... I stopped going to private schools for the benefit of my ate and bunso. I also resorted myself on going to state universities when I choose my college career. (I was the first college grad in our family... naunahan ko pa si ate..) Every summer and Christmas breaks for 4 years of my college life, I spent my vacation on our canteen because I'm the only one who knows how to cook besides my mom and we need to save money for my ate and bunso's tuition.. At the age of 20, I'm still NBSB...(ayun, naunahan pa ko ni ate dyan...)

So, should I be bitter on what's happening in my life??? That's my biggest question until now... Because i'm starting to feel tired of being a good kid...But I had second thoughts pa din...

sabi ni nanay.. " Hindi alam ng mga nanay na masyadong well-attended sa mga anak, hindi na natuto ang mga anak nila na tumayo sa sarili nilang paa"

Sabi ni auntie.." Hindi ang anak na hindi pinagagalitan ang mas mahal ng ina kung hindi ang anak na mas madalas na nasasampal"

There's also a saying that we should love ourselves first... so can I just drop down the good kid in me for a while so that I can enjoy life????



I need to be enlightened.. I need help...

:'(